first of summer

Happy new year, folks!

2008-12-31T16:42:26Z

What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
Party like there's no tomorrow. Got a job. Lost a job.

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
What resolution? Didn't have any, I think.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Hmm, no.

Did anyone close to you die?
My Brittany dog died.

What countries did you visit?
Zilch.

What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
It's cliche but I would really like to have peace of mind this coming year.

What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
My graduation (!), my first day of work, the day JB came back, and so on. I had an eventful year.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Graduating on time, baby! And yeah, having and losing a job in the same year. That was fun.

What was your biggest failure?
You know when the HR people ask you about your future plans and such? When I was in interviews, I said that I would take up law and be a lawyer. And THAT WAS REALLY STUPID. That would make them think that I would leave the company so better not hire me.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Colds that last for weeks and coughs that scratch my throat I can taste blood in my mouth.

What was the best thing you bought?
Best thing? THE FRIDGE! And my knee-high black boots.

Where did most of your money go?
Clothes, food, fare, clothes, food, fare, nonsensical things.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
I got really excited about JB being back here in Manila. And of course, the graduation after four long years of torture in school. I suppose I also got excited about my first day of work. Haha. Going to the Rihanna/Chris Brown concert was pretty, exciting too.

What song(s) will always remind you of 2008?
Low! Seriously, it was everywhere!

Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Sadder, happier, sadder, happier. This year has been an emotional roller coaster ride for me.
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner and then I started working and then I wasn't able to go to the gym as much as I wanted to. So yeah, I got fatter.
iii. richer or poorer? Richer. I got a job.

What do you wish you'd done more?
Gym?

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Being paranoid.

How many one-night stands?
I'm not into this anymore. Haha.

What was your favorite TV program?
House, Heroes, Gossip Girls.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Yes, myself. And Sheryl Loja. Hahahaha.

What was the best book you read?
I still love the His Dark Materials trilogy.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Songs from the 80s and 90s.

What did you want and get?
Nice-paying job, boyfriend. Graduation.

What was your favorite film of this year?
I haven't watched a lot of films this year.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 21. JB surprised me with cake and flowers. My friends and I had dinner at Jollibee (!) then partied until next morning.

What's one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Getting into Procter and Gamble.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
I wore everything from jeans to dresses.

What kept you sane?
My best friends. They have helped me through the worst times this year and they have kept my spirits high during the good times.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I must admit, I do fancy the character of Edward Cullen.

What political issue stirred you the most?
The US elections. The terrorist attacks in Mumbai.

Who did you miss?
Some friends and Earl Chio.

Who was the best new person you met?
Aleah Galas and Karlo Alvarado. Seriously! Haha!

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
Forgive and forget.

What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself:
OMG, I don't know. I think I haven't been nice this year.

The most touching experience you've had this year?
Spending that one night with JB.

What did you like most about yourself this year?
I was more assertive and headstrong.

What did you hate most about yourself this year?
I kept thinking about things.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Mission three
Got my three best friends
Like we do it all the time we gone do it again (hey)

From Get Me Bodied by Beyonce. --> Still my song. My best friends kept me sane all the time.

Was 2008 a good year for you?
I think so.

What was your favorite moment of the year?
Every party, every heartache, every moment will be my favorite.

What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Probably summer, when all the atrocities began.

Where were you when 2008 began?
At home, eating.

Who were you with?
Mom, brother and relatives.

Where will you be when 2008 ends?
Still eating at the table or watching the fireworks.

Who will you be with when 2008 ends?
Same people as last year.

Do you have a new years resolution for 2009?
I still want to get thin. I'll go to the gym more often, then.

What was your favorite month of 2008?
October and November.

Did you lose anybody close to you in 2008?
My dog died. He was 13.

Did you miss anybody in the past year?
High school friends and Earl.

Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2008?
YES! Name it, I drank it! --> This was my answer last year and I would have to agree with this one.

Do a lot of drugs in 2008?
JB is a drug. Haha. Hmm...

You do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Waging war against people I haven't seen?

How much money did you spend in 2008?
I don't want to count. Probably a lot.

What was your proudest moment of 2008?
Graduating, being the first one to get a job in my circle of friends, being in the top spot for weeks.

What was your most embarrassing moment of 2008?
Can't remember.

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2008 and change something, what would it be?
I want to go back and change things if given the chance, but I'm too afraid of the consequences it will bring. Besides, I don't want to interfere with time.

What are your plans for 2009?
Be a better person, I guess. Haha.

How are you different now that the year has ended?
I'm more cautious but still assertive. I know what I want now and I'll do everything to achieve that.

What are your wishes for the new year?
I hope everyone will have a great time this year. ;)

It's raining. Last Christmas, it was raining too. Our media noche is unbelievable. We have so much food now. The songs on the radio are making me dance. I WANT TO PARTY ON FRIDAY! Wuhoo!

Happy new year, everyone. I hope you'll have a great year. :)

This is very apt.

2008-12-18T14:41:22Z

Burnout

O, wag kang tumingin ng ganyan sa akin
'Wag mo akong kulitin, 'wag mo akong tanungin
Dahil katulad mo, ako rin ay nagbago
'Di na tayo tulad ng dati, kay bilis ng sandali

O, kay tagal din kitang minahal

Kung iisipin mo, 'di naman dati ganito
Teka muna, teka lang, kelan tayo nailang?
Kung iisipin mo, 'di naman dati ganito
Kay bilis kasi ng buhay, pati tayo natangay

Tinatawag kita, sinusuyo kita
'Di mo man marinig, 'di mo man madama

O, kay tagal din kitang mamahalin

...

2008-12-16T15:11:18Z

It has come to a point when you begin to question whether it is time to move on or to stay.

Twilight

2008-11-30T15:39:50Z

Roanne and I saw Twilight at SM Fairview this afternoon, sticky floors and all that. I'm not a fan so even if I have heard people saying that it's not as good as the book, I still think that it's cool. I'm annoyed by the paleness of the vampires, though. They're almost as white as a bond paper. Or you can scratch that because they ARE as white as a bond paper. I would love to have a vampire boyfriend, though. Mysterious, fast, strong, immortal and most important of all, YUMMY.

Anyhow, I am going to Divisoria tomorrow to do some Christmas shopping. I will brave the throng of people squeezing themselves into the already cramped alleys of 168 and Tutuban.

My mom just got back from Cagayan de Oro. Before she left, I had told her to buy me a crate of pastel. She brought home one box, containing 12 pieces. Fail.

Random updates.

2008-11-23T13:08:08Z

Moto Moto!

Melman: No, no that's not it. Listen Mototo, you'd better treat this lady like a queen. Because you, you my friend... have found the perfect woman. If I was ever so lucky to find the perfect woman, I would give her flowers every day. And not just any flowers, okay? Her favorites are orchids. White. And I would bring her breakfast every day. Six loaves of wheat bread with butter on both sides. No crusts. Just the way she likes it. I'd be her shoulder to cry on and her best friend. And I'd spend every day thinking of ways to make her laugh. She has the most... amazing laugh. That's what I would do, if I were you. But I'm not. So you do it.
Moto Moto: Uhhh... What? Aaaanyways, where were we?
Gloria: [sigh] I'm huge?

And this song is for you, my love.

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

And I want to have a crush so I can sing .
I hung up
The phone tonight
Something happened
For the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush
What a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever
Feel the same way
About me
It's just too much
Just too much
Why do I keep running
From the truth
All I ever think
About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really
Just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way you do
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away
Goin' away

Has it ever crossed
Your mind
When were hangin'
Spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more
See it's a chance
We've gotta take
Cause I believe
That we can
Make this into
Something
That will last
Last forever
Forever

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really just
Another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way you do
'Cause I'm trying,trying to walk away
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away
Goin' away

Why do I keep running
From the truth
All I ever think
About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really just
Another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way you do
'Cause I'm trying, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away
Goin' away
Goin' away

Against all odds

2008-11-17T14:51:09Z

Some may not approve of my relationship with him, but to those some who do not want us to be together, just respect my decision to be with him.

Please don't make fun of us because I know that you don't want me to make fun of you and your special someone. This also goes out to my 'best friends'. You know how much we've gone through and it really hurts me how you can joke about us just like that. I let you do whatever to me. You make fun of me, you call me names but I never protest. I let you sleep in my house, I let you eat in my table. It feels like you're taking me for granted, especially with what you are doing to me.

I have forgiven you as I don't want to sacrifice the friendship that we have. But I really do hope that you'll realize your limits, that even though we are friends since way back then, if you don't stop what you are doing to me, there will come a time that I'll let myself drift apart from you. Friends support each other, right? What you have done to me and him was not very supportive, even if it was just a joke.

Maybe you won't realize this now because you haven't experience what I have gone through but I do hope that you'll realize your mistakes, too. I don't want to talk about this anymore and I still consider you my best friends but I just want you to know that you've hurt me a lot.

It's amazing how you can make lies and put thoughts in my head so that when I cry, you'll be happy.

:(

Rihanna/Chris Brown

2008-11-17T02:56:00Z

MANILUUUHHH!

THE CONCERT WAS AMAZING. The crowd was great, both artists were total performers. I super love the both of them. Hats off to Chris Brown for being a superb dancer and singer and kudos to Rihanna for having the energy to sing 8 (or more? I can't remember!) songs in a row! I cried when she sang Unfaithful and Hate That I Love You. Huhu, bitterness. Sulit ang Php 1500! My body was tortured though. I went to the gym early in the morning then I met up with Roanne and Tina and we went shopping at Market! Market! after almost getting lost in White Plains in the hopes of finding the house of Tina's cousin. We were in the field at 7:30 PM and the concert ended at 11:00 PM. My whole body was killing me by the time Mike saw us. After having a very unhealthy midnight snack in Jollibee/Starbucks Katipunan, he dropped us off at White Plains and there we slept for more or less 4 hours.

Good thing Roanne had a crazy thought of popping Medicol before going to sleep. It helped us a lot as we woke up without that bad headache.

The honeybear is still in HK and I miss him so much already. :(

And here are two songs that I really really like as of this moment. I'm putting it under the cut, don't worry.

EDIT: I can't put it under the cut. There's something wrong with my PC.

BTW, Roanne and I got to the office at 7:53 AM. WOW.

Tonight I'll be in the biggest concert of the year and I'm not even excited.

2008-11-15T16:54:47Z

I was forced to accompany my mom to the wake of her friend's husband. I don't like wakes. I don't like funerals. It makes me think that I'm insignificant, that anything I do won't matter because I'll be dead anyway.

And yes, it's the concert tonight (check my time). I don't have thoughts of jumping up and down as of this moment but I really do hope that I will be enjoying the concert later.

Office Blues

2008-11-13T03:19:22Z

11 AM pa lang and sobrang bored na ako dito. I don't want to make calls. I don't want to update the database. I don't want to type down applicant information. What I want to do is to sleep.

Hello, LJ world.

Paglalandi

2008-11-09T15:14:39Z

Kung nararamdaman ng babae na lumalandi ang lalaki, nararamdaman rin kaya ng lalaki kapag lumalandi ang babae?

ANG TRAFFIC SA FAIRVIEW. ANG TRAFIIIIIC.

Boredom

2008-11-08T16:40:25Z

And I'm pissed off on a Saturday night.

Random updates on the life of the eternally wasted human being that is me.

1. I have no more lunch money for the rest of the week since I have spent half of my last salary on food and (alcoholic) drinks.
2. I am not saving this month as I will buy my mother and brother their respective Christmas gifts. Their gifts are on sale so I need to buy them now.
3. Rihanna/Chris Brown concert on the 16th, and yes I'll be watching the concert!
4. I got 'the email' from DFA. Will I get the cut or not if they invite me for an interview?
5. I am really sad because of what happened tonight. I hate being stupid. Well, I am stupid.

Wuhoooo.

2008-09-13T05:01:04Z

I MISS BEING A BUM! Working in a far far away land, ie, Makati has turned me into a boring (much more boring) person. My routine now is like this - I wake up, go to office, go back home then sleep. And I only get 6 hours of sleep a day!

I don't have a social life anymore, you know. Charing! My office friends and I are going out tonight to drink our hearts out. I got my paycheck credited to my ATM, and man, it was so fun to use the ATM! It was my first time to use that machine. Yeah I know, I am a dork but my mom doesn't trust me that much that's why I don't have an ATM account. Nyahaha. I only got an ATM for my paycheck.

Will leave now because I have nothing good to say as of this moment.

Rants of the Underpaid/Overworked (not)

2008-08-17T13:55:23Z

I have work on a holiday and the sad thing about it is that we will still get our regular pay. This is the freaking downside of being a contractual worker. At least I get to sit all day long (while getting fat, bleh) while doing um, nothing? Haha. The office politics issue is so childish, though. I feel like I'm in high school - insecure people pulling down others, bullies maltreating the weak. Work ethics, anyone?

I'm downloading audio books because I have nothing to do. I wasn't able to go to the gym today because I was bleeding like mad. I turned my room upside down instead. I gave away 15 bags. :D

RNs

2008-07-26T16:28:03Z

Congratulations to all my friends and HS batchmates who passed the Nursing board exam! :D I am so happy for all of you! :) Kitakits na lang sa ospital (in case masagasaan ako ng tren haha)!

Naeexcite ako para sa inyong lahat for some weird reason haha!

BTW, I'm working! And marami rin sa colleagues ko ay RN na :D

Scared.

2008-07-10T16:43:27Z

I have been offered a job this afternoon in a well-known BPO company and it scares the shit out of me. I have to decide by tomorrow afternoon whether or not I will accept their offer.

Musings.

2008-07-05T16:01:23Z

I stole this from Keeme because it inspired me to write again. :)

Promise yourself to be strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.

To talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person you meet.

To make all your friends feel that there is something in them.

To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.

To think only the best, to work only for the best and expect only the best.

To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature you meet a smile.

To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others.

To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

Author: Christian D. Larson

~~~

I am too old for cat fights and I'm not that shallow to engage in one. I may be young and may have less knowledge about the world, but I have been raised well by my family and I have learned the right set of manners and conduct from my teachers to know what is right and what is wrong (or what seems to be right or wrong but hey even this dichotomy is relative haha). I acknowledge my mistakes and no, I don't feel like I'm the best whatever (or maybe even a goddess) in the world. I know my flaws and I try to correct them. And I only need a single me to prove myself in this world. I don't need multiple personas. Why should I confuse other people with my Internet persona, my real-life persona and whatnot when I can show them the one and only real me? I may whine and bitch and be paranoid at times, but I know when to stop. And I don't let bad things get into me. There are more important things to do than fuzz about and bug other people.

Why should I be satisfied with conquering an Internet-based forum (like what others are trying to do, yes I know you're reading this) when I can conquer the world? My life does not depend on it. I don't cringe with jealousy when someone becomes 'famous' all of a sudden, unlike you guys who try to destroy others who are in your path (path to what, I must ask). Does being mean mean you are being cool? I don't think so. It shows that you are the ones who are insecure because you keep on pointing at the flaws of other people. It shows that you lack class. Tsk.

Ah, I have better things to do than talk about you people. I won't whine anymore, sayang sa oras at energy. Sorry if I caused some headaches, rolling eyes, stalking and countless YM conferences on your part. Thank you for making me realize that even if I am friendly and sociable and I get along pretty well with all kinds of people, there are still just some who can resist my charm! :D

~~~

Friday night was full of love. My human teddy bear never fails to surprise me. He broke my heart when he cried because of his own what-ifs, though. Haha! I don't want to see him cry again, unless they are tears of joy. :)

Dinner date, drive to Neverland, moments we will both cherish forever, a whole night with the one I love. Bliss! ♥

~~~

On another note, I still don't have a job. :|

Bitchesa

2008-07-04T03:34:27Z

May bitchesang nagpost nito.

babaitang bitter,

tignan mo muna sarili mo bago ka magsalita about other people. hinde ka maganda. kahit konti. binobola ka ng mga tao feel na feel mo naman magpabola.

isa pa. hinde lang boypren mo ang lalake sa mundo. excuse me pero sana linawin mo muna sa kanya at ibang taong nakakaalam kung ano ang totoo bago ka nagrereact. you're barking at the wrong tree. unfortnately i hate dog looking women who barks like a newborn puppy. if you'd show me your fangs make sure hinde ka biglang umaatras. magsisimula simula ka tapos sasayangin mo lang pala oras ko.

at ang g**s ko pink. e kutis mo?

*bow*

meanie labs on the loose

~~~

Um tingnan mo muna ang sarili mo. Sino magmumukhang latak satin? Nagkaroon ka lang ng say sa mundo kase nagkapera ka. E pano kung wala kang pera, e di pupulutin na lang kita sa kalsada? Hindi ako kasing dumi mo. Kung sinusino kinakalantari mo, ako pa sasabihin mo ng ganyan. Pati may asawa, pinapatulan. Sinong sira ang ulo satin? Nagpapatawa ka ba? Wag niyo sabihing maganda kayo kase hindi naman talaga. Siyet. Sabi nga ng kabanda ng crush mo (na malamang e nandidiri sayo), 'Ah si ano? Hindi naman maganda yun. Ang taba-taba pa'. At wag ka magalala, alam ko mga sikreto mo. Gusto mo sabihin ko? Sigurado mababasa mo rin naman to. Stalker ka rin kasi diba? :D At pinaguusapan ka rin ng mga kaibigan mo kuno kapag wala ka. Hahaha. Ewan ko ba. Nasilaw ka ba sa kasikatan? Napakababaw naman.

Saka hello istalk ko kayo saka nung mga bata mo? WTF hindi ako ganun kabored sa buhay. And, ako pinili nya. Hindi kayong mga baboy kayo.

Sana mabasa mo to para fun. :D Na sigurado namang mababasa mo kasi nga stalker ka at ang minyon mo.

Hay.

2008-05-16T15:46:10Z

No one wants to accept me. I don't want to be a bum anymore!

DEPRESSION! I WANT TO WORK! GIVE ME A JOB!

IBM! Procter and Gamble! Megaworld! Metrobank!

Silvertoes.

2008-05-11T16:12:24Z

Wala pa rin akong work! Ang hirap naman maging ordinaryong taga-UP lang! Haha! Kelangan pa ata hindi lang taga-UP, with LATIN HONORS pa dapat!

Last week, may-I-libot the Makati area para maghanap ng work. Nagpunta kami ng Pasong Tamo for an interview tapos sa may Ayala tapos sa may Buendia. Sosyal ang Megaworld, haggard nga lang ang recruitment process at hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin sila tumatawag! Ang nakakaasar pa, pinabalik nila ako for my second interview tas pagdating ko dun, okay ang sasabihin sakin e wala ang magiinterview sakin. Tama ba yun? Walang konsiderasyon sa oras ng tao! Wag sila magmaganda porket sila ang taga-hire! Hahaha.

BUTI NA LANG, pumasa ako sa exam ng PROCTER and GAMBLE. At sana tawagan na nila ako para sa interview. Eto na ang katuparan ng lahat ng mga pangarap ko!!! Well pumasa yata ako kase hinatid ako ni JB sa Makati. Ahi, siya yata ang lucky charm ko. Kailangan bitbitin ko rin siya kapag iinterviewhin nako! :D

At sa ibang balita, nakakaloka itong pinasukan ko. Ang chidlish na ewan pero kebs lang. Wala kasing magawa e kaya go go go lang!

This week, mega tambay ang gagawin ko. Bakit ayaw ng trabaho sakin? Pati tatay ko ayaw akong magtrabaho, baka hindi na daw ako bumalik sa law school. In fairness, pupunta siya sa New York sa birthday nya. Sana ilagay nya na lang ako sa baggage nya at dalhin dun. Wala pa kong lakad na natuloy ngayong summer! At in fairness again, complete ang Pre family sa lunch kanina! Tong Yang, we love! Amoy usok nga lang kami paglabas.

Still a bum.

2008-05-08T06:04:16Z

No work yet. Been attending interviews since last week. Ugh. I have an exam at Procter and Gamble this Saturday. I hope I ace the test!

I hate Megaworld. Walang konsiderasyon sa oras! They asked me to come yesterday for my second interview and when I got there they told me that the head of the Legal Department was in the field that's why they could not accommodate me. I woke up at 7 in the morning for nothing! :|

Government agencies please accept my application.

Hurting.

2008-04-20T13:46:02Z

Exactly a year ago, we parted ways for the first time. A month later, we revived our relationship. Today, I don't know if I should still hold on or not.

Why can't I get the closure I need? I want to confront him but I'm afraid that he'll just deny everything. Is he really a lying, cheating bastard? Or is that girl just a really mean bitch?

Oh. My mistake. There's nothing I can hold on to. :(

Kamalasan 2008

2008-04-17T14:33:01Z

1. Family - Nawala ko digicam ko. Nagalit sila. Nagaway-away kami over PSP. Napaiyak namin nanay ko.
2. School - Hindi ako pumasa ng Law.
3. Love life - Mayroon pala siyang nilalanding iba.

Buti na lang andiyan mga kaibigan ko. Kung hindi, masisiraan nako ng ulo. Hindi ako makatulog, hindi ako makakain. Hay.

But I will try to be strong. I don't want to waste my life on unworthy people/things.

GO ME! Like what Neyo has said, I'M TOO FLY TO BE DEPRESSED!

Confessions of a Non-UP Law Passer

2008-04-09T16:36:42Z

I actually don't feel bad about not getting into law school. I feel somewhat relieved. Now I don't have to think of the financial and emotional and intellectual pressures of being a law student. I feel sorry for those who have expected me to be in law school for the next four years, though. I'm sorry if I haven't met your expectations. I'm sorry, Mom and Dad. Don't worry, maybe I'll excel in another field or something. Maybe I'll have a high-paying job right after graduation. Maybe the person who will marry me is rich enough I won't have to work anymore.

I smiled the moment I didn't see my name on the list. I got excited. I felt like I was really ready to face the real world. I spent the afternoon looking for jobs and applying online. It was crazy actually. I messaged my friends about my not getting into UP Law. It seemed like not passing was the best thing in this world. Haha.

My blockmate sent me this text message: Keep your optimism. After all, no one has ever damaged his eyesight by looking at the brighter side of life.

I have no regrets. Well, there is one. I wish I studied harder. Haha! Anyway, I'm ready for whatever the future holds for me. :P

Congratulations to everyone who passed! Make sure that you'll finish law school in time! I may need a lawyer in the next 5 years or so! :D

Shangri-la and Dolce Night!

2008-04-06T06:20:04Z

Last night was crazy. It was Michelle and Andy's birthday celebration yesterday. We went to Shangri-la in West Avenue for dinner (AGAIN! I've been there twice this week) and after 9 servings of different cuisines and jaw-numbing smiling for all the cameras that night, majority of us decided that we would spend the rest of the evening at Dolce. It was absolutely fun! Eunice was sulking (hihi), Jerome was dancing with other girls (!!!), Chito was drunk and Gerard WAS DANCING! I love the boys. They're funny and adorable. I love the girls, too. They're very good dancers! :P Note to self: spend more time with them at SM North. I haven't been to FF SM North since God knows when. We really had good clean fun! I saw some creepazoids though, the couple and the gay Michael Jackson wannabe. I wanted to stay there until around 4-ish but some guys had already left so of course, we had to come with them. And then at around 3 AM we went to Starbucks to have coffee then went home. Thanks to Anne for giving me a ride home. :)

On another note, my grades are A-OKAY this sem. Hooray for being a college scholar once more! UP Law is releasing the results of the interview on April 11. I'm really scared. I really hope that I get in. *crosses fingers*

I'm leaving again tonight! Sleepover at Roanne's house again. More photooooooos. I love it!

Dilat ang mata.

2008-04-03T16:50:45Z

May nabasa na naman akong hindi ko dapat nabasa. Ayan tuloy, dahil nabasa ko, na-drain na naman lahat ng kasiyahan sa katawan ko. Hay nako kahit isipin ko pa ang Jhogalynne, Jumping Jhogalynne bloopers (ginamit kong name sa Starbucks yung Jhogalynne, e si Beric at RJ at Jeffrey ang baristang andun at kilala na kami kaya ayun, nakisakay lang sila) at ang libreng cake ko from Roanne dahil ginawa ko yung dare nya, ie, paggamit ng name na Jhogalynne, e hindi pa rin ako napapangiti. Hay. Dapat siguro unti-unti ko na siyang i-let go. Para kasing wala ring patutunguhan to. O kung hindi man, matuto na sana akong wag magselos, ng sobra. Harhar.

Ilang beses ko ng binubuksan yung CRS, wala parin yung Chem 1 grade ko. Hay. Ang tagal naman. Kukuha pa ko ng clearance. Hassle din pala ang gumraduae ano? Daming kailangang bayaran, daming kailangan gawin. Pero wow, college graduation na to. After nito, 'real world' na. Well sa akin, kung pagpapalarin e apat na taon na naman sa law school. Ibang problema naman yun. Ewan ko ba. Ang blurry pa rin ng future ko.

Ayun lang. Nagulat lang talaga ako sa sinulat sa Peyups ng isang tao. Hay.